Dear bloggy . .

I don't know exactly what's happening in this house . But I think it's hard for me to stay being like this . I'm totally stressed . I'm bored . . I can't get my mind right . . I always try to be patient and let it through . . As long I've tried, this is more stressed me . . I've tried to find the happiness from outside, but still my heart cries when I remember about what they did to me . What's my mistake ? I've tried to be a best , but why there's no one can understand me . I don't really want to be loved much, but just the understanding .

I've cried in middle of crowded . I shout out loudly deep on my heart . God, help me ! Give more patience to be through this situation :'(