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Sabtu, 08 Desember 2012

Random . .


I can't describe what I feel inside right now . I just feel like I'm not being in the right place for this time . I miss what these all used to be . Everything has been changed by now . Whenever I hear my phone ring I feel scared , even to enter this home make my heart beats fastly out of how it works in usual . I always remember that thing , the thing that he said to me , the thing that I've never heard before directly from someone's tongue . Yeah, I've gotten a traumatic T_____T


I think I've never done the wrong thing , but why he should do this to me ? I always hear and do what he asked me . Even it's hard to find the time when I have a complain about what he asked me . But for this case, it cannot being tolerant . He tries to pit me with my brother's girl through my phone cellular . For the first time, I can be patient and wait for the right time to talk about this problem . But then, he tried to find my phone again tacitly and text the girl to break her relationship with my brother . I've gotten shocked , I can't push my emotion down . I spoke to him uncontrolly , my voice raised , my body vibrated and the tears fell down dramatically . ohh God, forgive me !! I know I've done the wrong way to open his eyes and mind . I shouldn't have done that to him that have grown me until now . But surely, I can't stand for any longer . I'm serious !! I think it's better for me than I get a stroke later to keep all of problems in my mind .

Then, this problem have a effect to my boyfriend that actually knows nothing about my problem . He said me
that I'm not a good girl (re:bitchy) dating a boy like mine . Haa ? He did nothing but he was judged ! He said that on phone not directly between face to face . Maybe that's why I've gotten the traumatic whenever my phone rings :'( Can u imagine that ? How come a father say that stupid words to his daughter while she did nothing wrong T____T

Until now, my boyfriend is being looked as a criminal by him . I don't understand why !! And I will always ask why why why ? T____T

Sabtu, 15 September 2012


Dear bloggy . .

I don't know exactly what's happening in this house . But I think it's hard for me to stay being like this . I'm totally stressed . I'm bored . . I can't get my mind right . . I always try to be patient and let it through . . As long I've tried, this is more stressed me . . I've tried to find the happiness from outside, but still my heart cries when I remember about what they did to me . What's my mistake ? I've tried to be a best , but why there's no one can understand me . I don't really want to be loved much, but just the understanding .

I've cried in middle of crowded . I shout out loudly deep on my heart . God, help me ! Give more patience to be through this situation :'(

Minggu, 01 Juli 2012

Putih Abu Abu : Never Forgotten !! (Part 1)

Abiz baca entrian na c Deni d bLog na, aq pun Langsung terinspirasi gtu bwt numpahin cerita suka duka ku semasa aq berjuang di SMAN 3 Solok, yang sejujurnya yah bukan sekolah ekspektasi aku dari awal. Dari awal aku udah wanti-wanti banget pengen masuk smansa, pi apa boleh buat waktu ujian saringan masuk na aku telat. Ada acara nikahan tante di rumah. Jadi, aku telat dan sadis na lagi, ruang ujian aja gag tauuu.... Nervous paz ujian pun tak terhelakkan.. Orang udah separoh jalan, nah aq na baru mo memulai.. haha.. (takdir kali yaahh...!!)

Karena ngerasa pesimis bakal keterima di smansa, aku daftar juga d smanti.. Berhubung smanti deket banget dari rumah. Jadi aku memutuskan untuk mendaftarkan diri ke sekolah itu.. Yahh, denger2 dari orang2 sih smanti tu gag bagus, siswa na nakal-nakal, sekolah na gag berkembang n bla..bla..bla..
eh, sembarangan banget sih tuh orang bikin stereotype. Tuh perspektif salah total !! Smanti gag sperti yang mereka suka omongin. Mungkin emang dulu ada kejadian yang suka bikin nama smanti jelek. Tapi itu kan dulu, dan bukan salah guru na uga kaann ? Itu mah emang pribadi siswa na aja yg bobrok. Udah ah, kok jadi curcol gini siihh -_______-"

Tibalah saatnya pengumuman kelulusan seleksi masuk smanti. Nama aku ada di papan pengumuman itu, tepatnya di helaian kertas pengumuman pertama yang berarti aku keterima di sma ini. Antara seneng dan berkecil hati gara-gara aku harus ngelupain impian untuk masuk smansa. Uhh, tapi aq cuma blg dalam hati sambil menghibur diri, "Kenapa harus cari skolahan bagus sih, yang penting berusaha aja jadi nomer satu di sekolahan ini". Hmm, yaa,, aq mulai mencoba untuk mencintai sekolahan ini ^_^

* Masa Orientasi Siswa (MOS)
Masa masa yang paling memalukan. Masa kami disuruh berkostum ala orang gilaakk !! Dengan topi kerucut rancangan sendiri, tas kantong kresek, dengan kalung papan nama ASLI, terong, pete, ikat pinggang dari tali teyen yang di jadiin  ala rok orang padalaman Papua gitu deh.. Yang paling bikin tengsin abieezz itu tuh empeng na. Kami disuruh ngempeng di sepanjang jalan sambil latihan PBB. MaLuuuuuuuuu !! Masa d ketawain ma anak esde sebelah. -_____-"
Waktu MOS aq d kerjain ma kakak2 kelas yang mungkin mereka seneng bgt liat kami menderita. Aq disuruh ungkapin cinta ma kakak kelas laen sambil bawa bunga n lari-larian. c abang niy rese' abiz dah, udah jelas di tepi jalan tu bunga-bunga na cuma bonsai doank. eh, malah di suruh cari bunga yang bagusan dikit. Gilaakk.. Mo cari kemane panas2 gini.. -_-"

Yang gag bisa di lupain n paling berkesan paz MOS tu waktu hari terakhir na. Kmi dikerjain. Dibilang salah satu dari kakak kelas na ada yang kehilangan kalung emas dan benda2 laenna deh.. (Bodo bgt, kehilangan masa kompakan yee..!!)
Dsana yang paling aku inget pas salah satu temen q di tuduh nyuri (padahal sengaja dimasukin k tas dia tuh kalung). Kami semua di suruh nunduk, ngaku sapa yang maling n di bentak abis-abisan. Tuh kakak pake terbagi atas 2 blok segala : blok memihak kami dan blok yang membentak kami. Pake acara pingsan juga tuh kakak, ada yang nangis juga dah kehilangan kalung. Temen2 juga ada yang nangis gara-gara takut, coz kami diancam bakal dikaduin k bapak kepsek n dibatalin jadi siswa smanti. (Pi saluuutt, ma acting mereka, TOP ceerr dah rekayasa na) . Eh, balik lagi k temen q yang di tuduh nyuri yuukk !! Mpe nangis tuh anak di bilang kalo bukan dia yang nyuri (padahal dia cowok loh). Gag usah di bilang yah nama na, alna hhmmm gmnaa gtu hihihi ^^
Dan yang aku inget, salah satu dari temen q "Aang" yang sedari awal barengan ma dia, langsung berontak belain dia. Sontak kejadian itu bikin suasana semakin tegang. Batapa sakit ati na setelah tau semua itu hanya acting belaka.. iiiiissshh....

*Awal Sekolah di kelas X3
Pertama masuk di smanti, aq di tempatkan di kelas X3. Awalnya aq bingung, lebi tepatnya kek org bego. Mo cari temen asyik bwt sebangku, pi gag tw sapa. Kebetulan Gita duduk sendiri, yowess aq duduk ma dia ajjah. Sbenernya enggan juga duduk ma Gita. Alna sedari SMP temen2 udah ngecap dia sebagai seorang yang centil na'ujubillah (peace Gita q sayang, Luv u.. :* ) Tapi ternyata Gita tu org na asyik bgt2. Dia bisa serius kalo belajar n bisa becanda kalo udah bosen n ngibur aq tentunya. Aq mulai gag suka liat org2 yg bilang gag2 tentang dia. Bagiku dia sahabat yg sangat baik. Dia pernah curhat sama aq sambil bercucuran air mata. Dia tipikal teman yg care bgt n peduli sama temen. (bwt yg suka judge org sebelum tau pasti tentang orang tersebut, kmu pasti nyesel klo suatu saat dia yg paling care sama kmu, percaya deh :)
Gita suka curhat soal cowoknya ma aku. Aku cuma dengerin n terkadang kasi solusi uga sih. Sejauh ini insyaAllah aku slalu mau dengerin keluhan temen-temen ku n berusaha kasi solusi. Terkadang Gita ngerasa gag enak juga selalu curhat dan aq cuma sebagai pendengar yg baik. Dia juga terkadang paksa aq buat curhat tentang cowok. Gillaaakk, aq blom mo pacaran. Bagiku cowok tu asyik buat jadi temen aja semasa itu. Blom nemu yg punya key misteri (ajjeee giLeee!!)
Mpe pada akhirnya tuh anak jodohin aq ma kakak kelas q, namanya D***. Mati-matian tuh anak nyomblangin aq (lucu juga klo d inget). Org gag saling kenal di comblangin, kontak jodoh kali yeee!! Pi alhamduliLLah gag mpe jadian ma tuh abg :D
Malah kakak kelas yang laen yang bertingkah aneh ma aq, namana gag usah tak sebut yah. Maluuu :D Inisialnya aja deh niy M**** !! hihihihi..
tuh abg aneh, maksa minta nomer hp, dibilang gag punya hp malah minta nomer telp  rumah (Ampyuuunn dah -,-)

Selain Gita, aq juga punya sahabat cowok yang gag kalah asyikna namanya Usman, ato lebih akrabnya aq panggil Uud. Dia teman yang asyik juga. Dia care, baik dan lucu. Waktu itu aq sering temenin Gita, Uud, Moris n Robi latihan band. (Duuhh,, kangen juga masa masa itu :( ....)

Di kelas X3 ini aq sering d gangguin ma 2 cowok ganjen namanya H******** n A***** yang sama skali aq benci. Bukan kenapa-napa, tapi dia suka iseng. Nyolek-nyolek, gangguin, pegang-pegang. secara semasa itu aq paling ogah di pegang cowok. Pacaran aja blom pernah, hihihi (maen aja masi ma anak esde di rumah.. kwkwkwk). Benci sangad liat cowo ganjen mata keranjang gtu. Gag bisa jaga tangan n mata na. iiiissssshhh >,<
Di samping ada si tukang isengin aq, ada uga heronya.. Namanya Akil. Dia yang suka bantuin aq klo lagi di ganggu ma mereka. Dulu sih, aq disuruh panggil abg Akil.. Weeqq :p
Aq pernah nangis di kelas mpe smua temen panik (hihihihi) gara2 dua bocah tengil itu colek2 paz aq lagi serius2nya belajar matematika. Secara itu pelajaran yang paling aq suka semasa sma. Seisi kelas pada marahin tu anak (kwkwkwk)
Saking bencinya aq ma tu anak, aq sumpahin tuh anak gag naek kelas. Jadi aq gag bakal nemu lagi deh org macam mereka (jahat yah, tapi aq dah terlanjur geram siiihh) hehehe.. Pi bener2 terkabul lho, pemirsa2. Tuh anak 2 tinggal kelas.. hihihii. Mpe tuh anak dua pindah skolah deh.. hehehehe.. Peace kawan.. ^^V

Pernah juga aq pake jilbab yang belang na ada motif gtu deh. Masi warna putih kok. Tapi dasar buk Ros****** na aja yg super duper rese' di razia deh tuh k kelas-kelas. Dan aq juga jadi korban keganasan na. D suruh lepas jilbab waktu tu juga dan pulang dalam keadaan tanpa jilbab. Ih, kesel campur mallu banget waktu tu. Sumpeh diing !! >,<

Paz pembagian raport, aq kaget paz aq di tetapkan masuk ke IPS, aq gag terima n ngelapor ke wali kelas q tercinta, bapak Adimul. Kenapa dia yg sering bolos, males, banyak remedi malah di kasi masuk IPA. Aq dah usaha mati-matian malah di campakkan k IPS. Ternyata korbannya bukan aq doank. Dila pun juga, dia juga pinter di kelas, malah tercampakkan juga k IPS. Sedih banget yah.. :'(
Kata pak Adimul sih kalian lebih berpotensi di IPS. Wawasan kalian lebih di IPS, jangan ikut-ikutan mereka masuk IPA, bapak yakin kalian jadi yang nomer 1 d IPS. Huhuhu, dengan sedikit putus asa aq n Dila terima semua keputusan bapak.

To be Continued.......... >>

Sabtu, 02 Juni 2012

June 2nd '12

God, I think mpek-mpek on this afternoon not as delicious as mpek-mpek that we usually eat together.. It is still with the same compotition and the same place but there is a recipe that doesn't come from the seller.. But, it comes from him.. The words seem so painful for me.. I just wanna enjoy this day with him, getting happiness and joyful.. In contrast, it is out of what I expect before.. He tells me about something that I never know before, something that I never know that it happened.. I've tried to hide my pain, try hardLy to show my smiLe and mu joy.. But it's so difficult to be hidden.. I give up.. -___-
Then, when I feel better by taking a deep breath, he begins to judge me by saying that I'm not a good sister for my brother.. He said that I never paying more attention to my younger brother.. He doesn't know anything.. He just could judge and judge ! He thinks just housework, game, lappy, twitter and facebook in my thought.. He said that because he know nothing about me.. He never try to understand me..
That situation makes me feel appetite.. I cannot enjoy mpek2 that usually become one of my favorite food..
One more thing that make me more painful is that when I know that I am not the only one girl that he takes to that place.. I'm not the only one girl that ever through the nightdate with him.. God, Do u know what I feel.. I know u more understand me than others.. I'm hurt, It's so hurt.. Thanks for today, God.. Don't worry, I stiLL Love u more and more.. I know u aLso Love me a Lot :')

SincereLy,
-Ojhaa-